I need life.
Hello. My name is Brittany and it’s way too easy for me to fall into depression.
Honestly I’ve always had to force myself out of the house because I would rather stay in and away from people.
Why do I push myself? Because I get depressed at home. No matter how socially awkward and weird I am in public, I need to see people occasionally for my mental health. I need the sun. I need to explore.
With some precautions, I’ve visited the Guadalupe River, the river walk, and the beach over the last couple of weeks. I went to my favorite restaurant this week, and I realized I hadn’t been since March! I went to Sams this week and Target! I had a pedicure!!! Again, it had been a long time since I had stepped foot in a big store for a purpose other than groceries.
I put on makeup. I’ve made myself get in the sun. I’ve went to a walking trail twice this week.
I feel happy.
I feel positive.
I feel hopeful.
We have to learn to support each other no matter what during this. You may view me as reckless after reading this. But for my mental health and for the sake of my child living with me, I’m learning I have to do things sometimes to bring me joy, and ultimately benefit my entire family.
So I’m telling you right now, if you need to go for a walk or throw on a mask and get a pedicure, do it. If you have anxiety about what’s going on in the world, it’s completely fine to stay home or avoid the things I mentioned. I support you either way.
I just want you to know I will never judge you for what you have to do to be okay mentally. Either way, I support you. Let’s be nice to each other. 🖤
Edited to add: I really am a hypochondriac and I don’t want me or anyone around me to get sick right now. So please take precautions if you are out and about. 🖤